**For a dear friend** Why is it that we are so intrigued by a "chase?" Why can't we see what we have until it is gone? I have been conditioned through heart break to create my very own safe haven
made from the armored walls and a tight door from which one could not pass through easily. Sometimes, we find an even "safer" place and give out the combination to our locks. Once we become vulnerable and raw, we no longer exude the same confidence... the novelty... the chase... the allure of what we once were. How though, do we go back to where there was passion with that person? Bringing it up in conversation only sounds like nagging... and then if they start doing the things they stopped doing in the first place, it feels as though it is only being done because we conversed regarding such love lost. It is as if you are playing a brutal game of tug-o'-war with the strongest man in the world... who possesses your heart, knows your weaknesses, and isn't playing fair. You feel as though you can never win. I suppose you just have to find that person who will love you for everything you are, just as well as for what you are not. Maybe it is alright to be comfortable with the rations behind your unbreakable walls, for now.
xx Your LIEfer
